thoughtsofafatgirl

One year journey

Who are you?


Peer pressure refers to the influence exerted by a peer group in encouraging a person to change his or her attitudes, values, or behavior in order to conform to group norms. Social groups affected include membership groups, when the individual is “formally” a member (for example, political party, trade union), or a social click. A person affected by peer pressure may or may not want to belong to these groups. They may also recognize dissociative groups with which they would not wish to associate, and thus they behave adversely concerning that group’s behaviors.[

In this day and age it is easy to be who you are, right? I’m overweight because I over eat. We have established that. But why do I over eat? I think it’s because I could never be the person I wanted to be. When I was a teenager I wanted to have pink hair and piercings and be a free spirit. I wanted to join a punk rock group and follow a band on tour. I wanted to not have to lie about every single move I ever made because I had an overbearing jerk of a father. You know what? I am an artist with a sweet soul and a wild side but you would never know that because if you were to see me I’m your bland every day girl but inside I rock. I think a long time ago I decided if I couldn’t be what I wanted then I was going to be someone nobody wanted. I figured it out, I cracked the code. I now know why my weight spun out of control. Well, it’s time to finally claim who I really am and if people don’t like me I’m sorry. I want to be me. I’m awesome and deserve a chance to shine.

May 31, 2011 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

TO THE….Blog?


This blog thing is my new super hero. If I could only find a way to snuggle with it I could be completely self-sufficient. I am doing really good today. I guess I should start posting what I eat on here so it’s more official. Please work with me this is my first blog attempt and I ‘m a bit over my head. I have recruited my cousin because she is a super computer person…but super cool..lol  So, hopefully everything will be on point within the next couple of days then my blog can go on me and my diet rather than what the f am i doing. Ok, later loves!!

 

May 31, 2011 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Boy oh boy…today was bad


I am a roller coaster of emotions and today was straight down. I did not stick to my diet and today was not successful, I really don’t have much more than that to say. tomorrow is a new day and a new beginning. Good night folks

May 31, 2011 Posted by | weight loss | 2 Comments

To write love on her arms


Hello people, I am not going to talk about my chunky self in this post..lol  I want to discuss a charity that I am supporting on my page. Don’t worry I’m not going to ask for money. The charilty is called To write love on her arms and it helps with people that feel there is no where to turn but suicide. All you have to do is click on the site and watch a small video that lasts like a minute then vote on what charity you feel should win a car. Chevy is donating 10 cars to the top ten picks. It’s an awesome way to support a cause for people who are to busy for much else. Thanks, I hope you look into it. Crystal

 

 

May 30, 2011 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Funny…I don’t feel like that


As you know I decided to change some things in my life I am not happy with. It’s weird one day you are perfectly happy with your life then another morning your wondering; How did I get here? It’s funny I went to a Dr. to get on a diet plan and she said loosing weight won’t help until I figure out what made me get out of shape…… I laughed. Jeez, could it be because I go for that extra piece of pizza or eat one to many cupcakes..and boy do I love cupcakes. I know what she meant, what happened to me? What made me a broken shell of a woman that would want to disfigure my body in such a way that I would want to be overweight.  Well, I could easily say it’s because I never felt loved or because I was abused when I was a child and talked down to all my life and I have a really shitty family. Boy I could go on and on but I wont for one simple reason. IT”S MY FAULT. I gained weight because I allowed it to be. Because I chose to eat instead of jog. Or watch T.V instead of play volley ball with my sister. I am the reason I am fat and I will be the reason of why I lose weight!!! This is going to be a long hard journey, one that I will fall flat on my face more than a few times and one I WILL finish. Maybe then I can get some of that self-esteem stuff I hear so much about. :).

May 30, 2011 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

I am fat and so much more than that


My blog is about me and my one year journey to hapiness. I seem to have allowed my life to get me off track. So I have started a one year crasher course to get back where I want to be in life. This includes my weight, school love and family. I hope you enbark on this journey where only millions have gone before.. just not in the exact same way. Love you all 🙂 Crystal

May 30, 2011 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

   

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